Poetry
Metamorphosis
On the ground I crawl while water fills my lungs
The melody of droplets pounding the floor fill the air
I listen in trying to mimic the music, but some songs cannot be sung
Above me are the angelic birds hiding away in the tallest tree with their wings expanding
While down below I await and wonder with curiosity
I wonder...
I wonder why white turns to black and black turns to white
I wonder how many illusions does it take for us to realize it was merely a reflection
I wonder when we will gaze both down and up and notice
I continue to wonder as water consumes me in all directions
I wait
I wait for the storm to stop, but my light at the end of the tunnel never shines
I turn the other way closing my eyes, but why bother, I'm already fading.
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Anchored to the eternal darkness of misery
Stuck I become unable to rewrite history
The weight of my mind only weighs me down
Trying to keep my head afloat, trying not to drown
clinging onto everything I'm able to grasp
But how exhausting it is having to hold on for so long
So instead I let go
The sun had risen and for the first time I reached out for warmth after waiting for the light to shine below
Fear and emptiness escaped as serenity filled my veins
I feel myself breaking out of my cage of fire
Breaking through the cocoon
Breaking free from the night and surrendering myself to the moon
~~~
I awaken to the sound of drops of rain rustling the leaves
A streak of light slowly rises through a cracked reflection in a nearby window
Beside me I notice wings I have never seen before
Or maybe wings I was too blind to notice
As I spread them wide, I realize they have always been there
Guiding me through the darkness, lifting me from despair
With each flutter, my doubts and fears begin to fade
And I am reminded of the beauty and grace that surrounds me in every shade
The rain continues to fall, washing away my past
And in its place, a new beginning is born at last
I rise to my feet and take flight, soaring above the trees
Embracing the freedom and hope that now surrounds me with ease
I am no longer anchored to the eternal darkness of misery
For I have broken free and rewritten my own destiny
With my wings as my guide, I ascend beyond the sky
Embracing infinite horizons, as I bid the past goodbye.
The Glass Vase
At the center of a table lay a glass vase
Surrounded by light and empty space
Its beauty glowed from within
How lively it looked, its curves like violins
Its crystal-like features shimmering from across the room
With flowers inside about to bloom
It craved the taste of tears from happiness
Soft and sweet with hidden bitterness
Admiring the vase from afar
It shined brightly as a new born star
Seconds later it was rolling softly between palms of hands
Spinning dizzily unable to stand
Graced by tender fingertips
Covering every inch like a moon during an eclipse
Little did the vase know it had other plans
Begging to be an hourglass with a bed of sand
As it slipped away from civilization
Lost a sense of home & connection
Broken and shattered
Lifeless and scattered
Pieces lay still on the floor
Until later swept away out the door
Someplace unknown where it did not belong
Trapped against currents riding along
Lost a sense of home & connection
Broken and shattered
Lifeless and scattered
Pieces lay still on the floor
Until later swept away out the door
Someplace unknown where it did not belong
Trapped against currents riding along
Forgotten at last
Away from the past
The vase became a puzzle as it was nearly impossible to put back together
The worth not gone but value lost forever
Its magic has been stripped away
I guess its glow was not meant to stay
The vase ended up in the trash outside
Crying to be heard all day through the night
Waiting for someone to notice its presence
From the roots to its core, its very essence
Until one day someone noticed its existence
But did not bother to stop, they didn't have the patience
So it continued to lay lifeless on its back
With a shed of light seeping through its crack
Music began to make its way
As a stranger on a guitar began to play
Chords lingering in the air
A reminder that someone out there truly cares
But life moved on
Everything from sight long gone
Before the vase cracked open
Inside was a drop of the ocean
A seashell that when brought up to the ear
Waves crashing was what you could hear
Now, no waves appeared
Everything empty, yet so unclear
There was only the screaming silence
All alone, left with no guidance
A boy around the age of six
Noticed the vase that craved to be fixed
He picked up what was left of the vase
And all the other pieces that were misplaced
Wrapped around in arms that felt safe
Heading to another unknown place
Placed on top of another table
Next to crumbs from an unfinished bagel
The vase lay shattered, its pieces spread apart
A reminder that nothing in life is ever truly a work of art
But beauty is not just in the form it takes
It's the memories and emotions that beauty leaves in its wake
As the sun set on the vase's remains
Its beauty will always live on through the window panes.
Shabbat Poem June 13, 2018
On Shabbat,
we don't hold things,
but we hold hands.
On Shabbat,
we don't turn off lights that are on,
but we surround ourselves with those that light up our smile.
On Shabbat,
we don't go to work,
but we work on relationships and make relationships work.
On Shabbat,
we don't drive,
but we are driven to find happiness.
On Shabbat,
we don't take pictures,
but we capture each moment and make special moments last.
On Shabbat,
we don't use electricity,
but when surrounded by the right people, they light up our life in unity.
On Shabbat,
we don't turn our phones on to listen to music,
but we sing and the sound of laughter and music fills the air.
On Shabbat,
we don't have a wifi connection
but we have a connection with those we surround ourselves with.
The Filtered Reality
In filtered frames, a perfect life, a narrative unfolds,
Of happy days and vibrant nights, at least, that's what I'm told.
But pixels lie and likes deceive, they tell but half the tale,
Behind each screen, a hidden scene, where smiles often fail.
I scroll through joy, I tap on love, each highlight reels me in,
Yet as I swipe, the truth's eclipsed by curated, polished skin.
Society says "Show your best," as if that's all there is,
While in the quiet of my room, my soul's in dire abyss.
My friends seem fine, their lives a line of trophies on display,
Yet, do they too, like me, yearn for a genuine, honest day?
For likes don't touch the lonely hours, nor mend a fractured kin,
Nor do they hug or dry the tears that trace tracks on my skin.
Behind my posts, a struggle rests, an unseen, aching void,
Of needing love, a caring hug, connections I've enjoyed.
Yet in this world of perfect posts, sincerity's but rare,
Each image shot, a fleeting thought, but who's to really care?
So I exist, both here and there, a paradox it seems,
A life that's split between the real and digital extremes.
A battle fought in quietude, away from prying eyes,
Yet hope I keep, one day we'll see, our truths behind the lies.
Letting Go
I watched the ink fade to ash as the words swirled up in smoke
The fire danced around the paper as if choosing what words to let go
The edges crumble until there's nothing left
But a pile of ash that the flame digests.
A storm arises and lets it scatter
Into the shadows of the night like it doesn't matter.
But it arranged in such a peculiar way
Twirling in the wind towards the light to play
A season ago I'd tell you I need to hold on.
Too attached to the past and what's gone
A single picture I cling to for memories
To fill the missing puzzle pieces of my mind that creates stories
Unable to bring myself to give up the past
As I blindly stare into the rosed-color glass
I grieve for the girl I used to be
But now I realize I'm exactly who I need.
Never knew how much pain I've caused myself
From holding on so tightly to every word spoken or to photos hidden on the shelf
I am no longer defined by what is now history
I have learned to let go and create a version of me that lets me experience growth in the depth of my mystery...
Westerland Roses
I had grown a garden-
a garden
with Lilies and Daisies,
Gladiolus and Naked Ladies,
and of course my roses;
Westerland roses.
But you destroyed my garden
thinking I must be protected.
You cut off all
the thorns
off my roses.
I should have sheltered myself
from you.
My story,
Now ceases to exist.
A part of me had died that day.
My soul
is the roots,
My heart
were the roses with thorns,
My home is a garden,
And you are a prick; a rusty, dull, shovel.